I have never been violent, channeling my father. My mother on the other hand was physically and emotionally abusive, so what I learned from her was not to get close. No child should witness violence, especially from a parent. As an adult I was told I was suffering from PTSD. It fit.
I learned long ago that most men learn a lot of dysfunctional emotional BS and this was expected. Except it made no senses and it denied our humanity. Crying is very therapeutic. Don't feel ashamed.
I have never been violent, channeling my father. My mother on the other hand was physically and emotionally abusive, so what I learned from her was not to get close. No child should witness violence, especially from a parent. As an adult I was told I was suffering from PTSD. It fit.
I learned long ago that most men learn a lot of dysfunctional emotional BS and this was expected. Except it made no senses and it denied our humanity. Crying is very therapeutic. Don't feel ashamed.
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